Remember the Death // Rebirth Videos & posts i did on the cusp of this new year? I was right on because I’m most definitely in the barazakh, the station in between worlds & dimensions. The place where you’re neither here nor there, not body or pure soul, the place in between disemboditment & embodiment. That’s where I’m at right now.
Finally today, after months of collapsing old structures within me & on this 8/8 potent portal of Lion’sGate, I’m ready to admit that I’m going through an identity crisis in the matrix.
I’ve lost nearly all my friends & communities since childhood, I’ve left my parents & my hometown, I abandoned all my matrix plans for the future.
I’ve shed so many false layers in the past year, I’m pretty unclear on how I want to show up in the world at the moment. I know I have to be patient as I get to know my new 3D self but patience is always hard for me & my soul actually wants no participation in the matrix at all.
I’m having a hard time reconciling the REAL me with the matrix now that I shed & am integtrating the false un-integrated parts of me.
I’ve been feeling heavy, tired & uninspired most of the time. I guess all I can do right now is sit it in this discomfort & ambivalence w/ trust, surrender & an open heart.
2020 was the disembodying phase in the transformation of the caterpillar to butterfly in the chrysalis, or the death phase. 2021 is the integration & transmutation phase. 2022 will be the regeneration or rebirth phase on our collective journey to the 5D New Earth insha Allah.
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